A letter to my father

You're not a perfect father like i used to compare in Family Movies or my father's friend
You seldom to ask for familly vacation since i was child
You never taught me and even lead as Imam for our pray
I hated you because of this
I hated you more to raise me to be tough as I am today
Somehow i want to be treated like a "daddy's girl" (in fact I never had)

I didnt excited to chat with you, as you only discussed about technology, job, or politics
You dont seems care enough to hear about what i'm feeling
About how I hate my job
How tough it is,how dirty is & and how shitty is

But you know
I realize now..
There's such no perfect father in this world
The relationship between you & God is the deepest & most secret that human being ever had
I don't wanna bother that, cause I have my own that only me know about it and there's no one else
Thanks for encourage me and push me to keep stay within my job today
Which taught me a lot, to be tough in this life..
To be smart in such of hard situation
To be curious more & never stop learning
To be confident to face whatever in front of you, as long as you're right

I just don't wanna miss to say thank you..
You may not the best, but deep inside there
I know you love me
Thank you for everything..as I can't describe for every single things
May Allah give you health and show the right path

Love
Your daughter

Tribute to my ENG-1 buddies

It begins when i just type "Imma Agustina" in google toolbar search engine, since i forget already my blog address :P (it's already so loong time i didn't visit my blog)
I found my name in someone's blog..Jemmit..
The story is about the great time he had while attending ENG-1, yep he was one of my classmate.
Reading his story is like turn back the time, it was my great time ever since the first time I join my company, met great people from diverse country..and I just felt so graceful to spent time with those people and I think it help me a lot that I could pass the hard 10 week (well..some people considered ENG-1 was the toughest one! even I agree, but I didn't felt burden at all while i'm attending it)

Thanks guys for the time we had together..wish that we can meet again and hopefully we still the same person like we used to be

Time goes by..life go on..people may change, but hopefully our great memories will stand still :)

Lebih baik menangis dan terluka hari ini

Yep..sepotong lirik dari sebuah lagu yg lagi saya suka banget (benernya udah dari kmren2 sih sukanya, bahkan sblm bikin akun blog ini)

I think the best one for me is
"Aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan
Terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini"

Yap..tampaknya memang lebih baik menangis & terluka hari ini, daripada harus menyesali dan lebih menangisi lagi di kemudian hari
Toh apapun yg sedang terjadi, baik & buruknya itu bagiku adalah suatu pembelajaran..
We always get lessons to be learned in this life, because this universe is university of life don't you think so?

Lirik selengkapnya

Coba coba katakan kepadaku bahwa kita sedang berjalan menuju satu alasan
Janganlah kau katakan bila kita memang tak ada tujuan dari apa yang dijalankan

Aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan
Terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini

Coba coba katakan kepadaku sekali lagi bila kita memang benar akan kesana
Buktikan dan buat aku percaya bahwa kita bisa mewujudkan bahagia

Aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan
Terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini

Ohh.. Oh.. Habis sudah semua rangkai kata
Telah terungkap semua yang ku rasa
Yang kuingin akhir yang bahagia

Aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan
Terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka

Aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan
Terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini

Yang ku inginkan satu tujuan
Sebuah kenyataan bukan impian
Bukan harapan bukan alasan
Satu kepastian

Coba katakan
Coba katakan
Coba katakan
Coba katakan

by Maliq N D'Essential
^_^

He decided..

..he made the decision..

Mungkin diri ini yg belum siap melepasnya, atau terlalu lama aku meminta waktu untuk menentukan akhir dari kebimbangan ini
Yahh ibarat akhir dari persidangan,palu telah diketuk..keputusan telah diambil..by him..
Tapi kenapa harus dia membisu, menungguku untuk menanyakan kepadanya..sampai akhirnya this feeling told me, that now he may try to approaching another..
Why you just so calm..our business it's not end, not yet..till this morning I ask you

Wahai laki-laki yg katanya bernyali, persisten dan tangguh
kenapa kau bisa sepengecut itu
Tak kulihat kau berusaha semampumu to fight for my honor, kini kau membisu dan menolehkan kepala ke arah lain, berlari karena tak berani menghadapi apa yg ada di hadapanmu

I know, sooner or later this is may be happen,the decision made by me or you
It's just I want to say..it's still hurt, yes I fall now
But..yet i 'll get up and walk with this wound
I'll heal it..and walk..walk fastly..and finally run..leave all this old pages, to start a new journey of my life
I wish..

Imma Agustina is...

Imma Agustina is..updating her facebook status

Hihihi..lagi rame salah satu artis lokal kita yg cakep (yg pasti ga mirip gw lahh)
gara2nya nih dia posting status di social networking site a.k.a twitter.
Jadi keinget kejadian yg nimpa gw, ga punya twitter sih cukup facebook aja.
Ada satu hari dimana gw didamprat (damn!!) ama seorang mami yg mulutnya busuk banget..i said this coz she ruined my day.
Ok then..just like usual people suddenly it come on my mind i want to post what i'm feeling on that day in my facebook. Sugar honey ice tea..i opened my facebook and there are few message in inbox, my heart just throbbed i can feel that negative energy..and bang! yep i just got another sh*t from woman who consider she's the most know everything, the wisest in the earth or whatever..in fact she's just another sl*t who act as a saint.
Thanks to you all..the women who totally ruined my day and haunting me till now.

I can feel what you feel Luna..wish that we're friend, that's why my facebook status is
"Buat luna, ati2 yah update status di fesbuk,twitter ato sebangsanya..: belajar dari pengalamanku dihantui ma kuntilanak sesaat setelah update status hihihi loool ;p"


PS. sorry my bad languange , at least i throw my negative emotional here not to anyone ^_^

Quotation of the day

Hasil jalan2 ke salah satu blog yg isinya sharing/curcolan (halah ikutan latah basa masa kini) orang2. Hmm nice quotation, i should make a positive movement. Hopefully this failing relationship means that i'll getting closer to my Mr.Right. Unfortunately i just break up two times in my life (..wait a second am i already officially break up this time??).

"Take a second out to think about this: in your life you search and search for the right person for you. Every time you break up with someone you get one step closer to that person. You should look at moving on as getting closer to meeting the one. "
Ian Philpot

F*ck You Very Much

Sounds rude ehh?!

Hehe..jgn keburu mikir yg engga2 ini cuma lagu kok
for me it's kinda nice song, melodynya lucu..innocent tp pake lirik yg cukup provokatif
dengan aksen Lily Allen yg kental bgt aksen britishnya. Hmm bnernya sih ga tau pasti apa arti dibalik liriknya (orang basa inggris-nya wong ndeso yaa mepet2 deh)
Bisa juga nih dinyanyiin di depan org yg pengen banget lu teriakin f*ck you di depan mukanya..huahaha no..no it's too provotatif then

Look inside
Look inside
Your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
Cos we're so uninspired
So sick and tired
Of all
The hatred you harbour

So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think
You're just evil
You're just some racist
Who can't tie my laces
You're point of view
Is medevil

F*ck you, f*ck you
Very, very much
Cos we hate
What you do
And we hate
Your whole crew
So please
Don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you
Very, very much
Cos your words
Don't translate
And it's getting
Quite late
So please
Don't stay in touch

Do you get
Do you get
A little kick out
Of being
Small minded
You want to be
Like your father
His approval
Your after
Well that's not how
You'll find it

Do you
Do you really enjoy
Living a life
That's so hateful
Cos there's a hole
Where your soul
Should be
You're losing
Control of it
And it's really
Distasteful

Fuck you, fuck you
Very, very much
Cos we hate
What you do
And we hate
Your whole crew
So please
Don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you
Very, very much
Cos your words
Don't translate
And it's getting
Quite late
So please
Don't stay in touch

Look inside
Your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
Cos we're so uninspired
So sick and tired
Of all
The hatred you harbour

Fuck you, fuck you
Very, very much
Cos we hate
What you do
And we hate
Your whole crew
So please
Don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you
Very, very much
Cos your words
Don't translate
And it's getting
Quite late

So please
Don't stay in touch